Just Stopping By the Library

Wa, 1 year already ah??

To those reading this, whoever and wherever you are, at home, on a plane, in the library, in bed, taking a shit, on the bus to the interchange, on the train along the purple line, etc. Hi. I've loved writing since I was around 15? I'm turning 20 in May (BIG TWO OHHH, IM GETTING OLD WTF). I started off with screenwriting first, then whatever nonsense I've put out in this I like to call "library" for a while. Why library? Because ummmm, I don't know. Maybe you get inspired by this I hope? Or learn something from this? Or borrow ideas? Doesn't matter really. This is the first time I've seen my stories here again, because I shared this site to my friend.

I have returned after 1 year because a spark has been relit in me, as I'm sure all writers go through, whether it be after months of not writing, or years. For me, I have been writing since then. I had a creative writing class in the end of 2021 where I submitted 2 short stories around 2000 words each. I also wrote a few poems, funny and seri...... oh mostly funny and nonsensical. But I enjoy it. And that's why I feel I have a will to write now.

Life for me has not gone better or worse. It's just changed. Yes, I still deal with a lot things. Yes, there is still a lot to think about. But sitting down the past few days, writing my current story, without caring for grammar structure, vocabulary, etc ..... but rather just me being me. My style. I'd say I've enjoyed writing now the past few days more than I would have years ago, because I felt then I needed to write (because I was sad lol) or I was trying to sound more artistic, poetic, fluent, vocabulary-rich, or I had a deadline. I still fear writing though, of course, so I hope I can spend almost every day writing a bit.

My main point of this post is this: I won't be returning for a while. Probably. I have a couple of stories in mind, all interconnected in some way, one of which I am writing now. But I do not have the desire to share it with anyone, yet. I want to see how far I can go on my own. Without any "influence", I'd say. As I am writing now, I realise, in my opinion, that I've developed a certain writing style akin to what I have read before, but also based on my own experience of telling stories verbally, or how I communicate with people in general. This post is perhaps a teaser to the style I am describing. I'm not sure if it even is a unique style, but it'll seem like I will spend a long time finding my true style.

Aiiiiiish, I just get bogged down by seeing all these writing workshops, creative writing workshops, storytelling workshops, "writing tips", "how to write", "how to create a good story", etc. I just sound very stuck-up now, but it's because these stories I have in my hands right now, I believe in them. Believe in them in that they are something that's pulling me closer to it. I'm not sure if that makes sense but I literally have visions of them, mostly in like movie scenes form. Like, I see my stories. If it isn't something divine, I don't know what else to describe it as. I could be wrong, and it's a sign I should go for some workshops to refine them, or look for writing partners, or my work will never be published. But I enjoy writing it on my own, and in the end that fact that I enjoy it is all that matters, enjoying how whenever I see a certain scene in my story that makes me almost tear up, or a scene in my story that gives me goose bumps, etc, it invigorates my life.

The only problem then is me wanting to share that feeling with others. If it is meant to be, it is meant to be.

But in the end, I want this full story to be a by-product of my life, my living a full life.

And also, I'm lazy to maintain this site.

So yeah, thanks for reading this. I'll probably check on this place for time to time, just to keep it in touch with it, like a real library. To whoever finishes this, be ambitious, but don't expect to reach the tip of the mountain, ever. Because that tip is the day you die, and you look at your book of accomplishments, and hopefully you go say something like .........

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"Damn. Nice."